Night Sky being outside had been the correct assumption. The dryad was sitting on the other side of the cabin, fishing pole shoved into the muddy shore, mostly naked frame leaning back against a sturdy log. She glanced over when she heard her name and grinned.
"Over here, sweet thing." She called back. Night Sky sat up a little and patted a spot on the log beside where she rested on the ground. "Saved you a seat."
Keyleth opened her mouth to make a joke about the seat being her face, but changed her mind at the last second. Instead, she sat down on the ground next to Sky, resting her back against the log and crossing her legs at the ankles. "You catch anything yet?" she asked, tilting her chin towards the fishing pole as she fussed her skirt into place.
"Hm? Oh. No. Not really biting today, I think." Night Sky shrugged and tugged her knees up to her chest, resting her arms atop them. "What's on your mind, Keyleth?"
"Oh." Keyleth tried to think of something she could do to usher the fish to the fishing pole, like, maybe she could change into a fish and talk to them about the great tasty worm over by the shore--but that was a little morbid and weird even for her. And she was probably stalling because her thoughts were so scattered and weird. She sighed lightly and shifted to tuck her knees up to her chest, resting her folded arms on them. "Do you, um, do you remember Vax? My. Well. My Vax?"
Night Sky was silent for a moment. "Yeah, a little. Talked to him a few times." She was more into his sister, if she was honest, but maybe now wasn't the correct time to say that. "Did something happen with him? Is he here?"
"He is, but..." Keyleth heaved a sigh and stretched her legs back out, restless and fidgety. "It's not--he's not my Vax. There's so much he doesn't know because it hasn't happened for him yet. He doesn't remember the Feywilds. He doesn't know he's gonna die. I don't, I don't even think he and I are together at the time he's from. And I don't know how to talk to him. Or if I even should."
She heaved a sigh and hauled herself to her feet to pace, dragging her hair over her shoulder to twist a thick lock of it between her hands. "Or if I even want to. And then I just feel terrible for all of it, because I should. I should want all the time I can get with him but I just, we went through so much. And I don't know if I have it in me to go through it again. What's wrong with me?"
Night Sky watched her intently but did not move from her position on the ground even when Keyleth stood and started to pace. It sounded... familiar, almost, only Night Sky had been on the opposite side. Aymeric knew some version of her from before, the version he married and adored. Their situation had worked out well, at least.
"Nothings wrong with you, Keyleth." She assured her. "I can't imagine what you're going through, but it's not like you're a bad person for not wanting to do it all again. It's like starting over — and can you even really do that when you know the outcome?"
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"Over here, sweet thing." She called back. Night Sky sat up a little and patted a spot on the log beside where she rested on the ground. "Saved you a seat."
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"Hm? Oh. No. Not really biting today, I think." Night Sky shrugged and tugged her knees up to her chest, resting her arms atop them. "What's on your mind, Keyleth?"
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"He is, but..." Keyleth heaved a sigh and stretched her legs back out, restless and fidgety. "It's not--he's not my Vax. There's so much he doesn't know because it hasn't happened for him yet. He doesn't remember the Feywilds. He doesn't know he's gonna die. I don't, I don't even think he and I are together at the time he's from. And I don't know how to talk to him. Or if I even should."
She heaved a sigh and hauled herself to her feet to pace, dragging her hair over her shoulder to twist a thick lock of it between her hands. "Or if I even want to. And then I just feel terrible for all of it, because I should. I should want all the time I can get with him but I just, we went through so much. And I don't know if I have it in me to go through it again. What's wrong with me?"
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"Nothings wrong with you, Keyleth." She assured her. "I can't imagine what you're going through, but it's not like you're a bad person for not wanting to do it all again. It's like starting over — and can you even really do that when you know the outcome?"